So when it comes to my blog, I try to stay as authentic to myself as much as possible. Especially a lot more recently, I am trying to be authentic because I am writing more about my life. Not that I wasn’t trying before. Before it was authentic more in the sense of what my thoughts are on mental health when I just exclusively blogged about mental health.
But now I feel like it is different because I am giving something more to my readers by blogging about my favourite topics and interests such as music, movies and travelling. And I feel like that is a good thing because I am opening up a lot more and I am being more out there in a sense but not in a wild way. The blogger way. And that is a lot for someone like me because I am normally someone who is shy, quiet and reserved. So I can say that I am proud that I am doing more of that often and because of that, I have come a long way.
I even am applying my authenticity to my ‘real life’ life as well beyond the internet and blogging. It is not me saying I have never been genuine and I am not a genuine person. Because I am definitely a genuine person. But when I say this, I mean in a way that I am opening up a lot more, I don’t keep my thoughts in my head (only sometimes) as much anymore. And I am definitely being more forthcoming with what’s on my mind a lot lately too.
All this has is in the process of changing me. It hasn’t completely changed me yet because this is a process. And every process takes time. I am in the midst of becoming a better person and I feel a lot happier now. I feel so much positivity and happiness at home, at work (even though it can be draining) and also my social life just a little bit.
But I can say that as a person, I am growing, I am improving myself so I can be better mentally and physically. Not to say that there were never times where I had mini panic attacks. I did. But it doesn’t last for long and it is not as often or frequent as it used to be before. And I am glad for that.
I feel like ever since I started working, things have started to look a little more up than it was looking before. Before I starting working it was okay, but it got even better when i started working. Which is great.
I have had times where I was in my own too much, thinking a lot and also having that negative feeling. But this is reducing a lot less now that my anxiety is improving. That does not mean I don’t have anxiety at all, I still do. But it is just that I am getting better at managing my anxiety. And that in my eyes is a plus sign thst my future looks bright already.
If you reached the end, thank you for reading, it means a lot to me that you did.
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